Sometimes.... God's ways are weird maaan.... Like really . You can and often will get what you want, but at what cost? Hear me out...
Now for the extra religious, chill! I'm just being real, K.
So I prayed about a thing about 15 years ago... That God would do something in my heart. I was earnestly fasting, praying, crying out, seeking HIM with supplication...eeerythang. I remember the very specific words that I prayed from the depths of my soul....Like Jesus and Paul, Lord take this cup from me...
(Nowadays, I'm praying "Lord take these nachos off my plate so I can unbig my back" lol...but I digress..)
For I about 2 years my plead was "Lord, take this thing out of my heart before I ruin my LIFE!" Then....bam....
Waiting...
Waiting... Maybe He didn't hear me....so...
Wait some more....
OK I must need to sprinkle in some high heels while I pray for a lil' razzle dazzle, that's bound to work, right? Plus I'll be closer to Heaven that way....
Waiting...hmmm...No change
Now I'm waiting IMPATIENTLY.
Nevertheless, I still keep asking, waiting, praying, seeking and knocking. I know He hear me, right?...
Fast forward about 2 years later I'm looking at Jesus like ummm bruh, this is light work...All I need you to do is just tweak this thing in my heart and soul and bam...we good. Nevermind that this whole "want" has lurked in my soul since I was 18. Here I am 34 years old and am just now praying and asking God to take it out. Geez do we humans want the easy way out!
Did He answer.... NAW.... At least not in the way I thought He would.
Looka here...my path took me a whole seven years just to break that thing up...then another six to realize IT WAS ME ALL ALONG holding ME up from the change I needed. I'll tell ya, this ol' heart of mine can be just plain stubborn? Sigh...
I said all of that to say this, when the Lord says "NO" to a thing. .... LISTEN! OBEY! The FIRST time, well... maybe the second time for sure.... But after time number 3, 4 & 5 you gon' get YOUR way but IGNANT THINGS OFTEN COME WITH YOUR CHOICE...
Now I don't live with regret..AT ALL. I believe life is a series of learning experiences. If we don't learn and grow from our choices may God have mercy on our souls!
As I ponder some things this beautiful Saturday morning, I leave you with this...No matter how much you want to go against wisdom, please listen to and obey the Lord the first time...or two.
Please ma'am. Please sir. .
A word to the wise is sufficient....
Isaiah 55:8-9
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts."
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